Hello again, it’s been a while. If you haven’t noticed I’ve been on a bit of a blogging hiatus. You know, life creeps in. Things happen, and before you know it it’s been over a month since you last posted.
We had sickness sweep through our house and I took a break to get well and care for our little munchies. When you haven’t written in a while it’s easy for things to stay that way. So even though we’ve been better I really have struggled at getting back to blogging.
The break allowed me to slow down and have the Lord work on my heart.
You may know that I wrote about this being my first year to make a New Year’s resolution of sorts. Actually I joined in on One Word 365. I had never made a New Year’s resolution before this year. Mainly I feared it would become an unmet commitment.
So God has been bringing me back to that. That one word I chose for the year… DEEP. To go deep with Him. To let Him go deep in my life. To take me to the ends of myself and my faith.
And you know I have been resorting to the same old tactics. Wanting something different, something other than what He has planned. Wanting out of my present circumstances. Losing my contentment and wanting a comfortable life.
I’ve come to realize that comfortable life, is in direct opposition to a called life.
Difficulty and hardship are the making of us. The surrendered life. Surrendered in every circumstance, good, bad, all of it.
I have so struggled with my life not looking like what I expected and more so with it not looking like what the world expects. Always saying, “Yes Lord what you have is good and all, but I want that over there. That is what my life is supposed to look like. Not this.”
How can He ever bring about the story He has for your life, for my life, if we are sticking to these preconceived ideals?
Sometimes God calls you aside. Calls you to wait. Calls you out, apart, into the desert with Him.
Oh that desert experience… Oh how I have rebelled against it, tried in my own power to change it, in any way possible. Instead of surrendering to the work He is trying to do in my life.
The very thing I ask for, a deeper walk with Him, is the very thing I reject, because it doesn’t come packaged the way I like.
But what if the desert is the best part of the story? The biggest opportunity? Those years we see as waisted. What if that’s it, what it’s all about? And the rest is just, as they say, “gravy”?
What if your story, my story, our desert experience, is actually to read: “Once upon a time… I was held captive by a King.”?
Not just any king, but The King. The King of Kings. The one who formed you, who formed me. The one who knows your sitting down and rising up. The one who gave His life as a ransom for you.
Does the rest of the story even matter?
So I am looking at things differently these days, with God’s help. Trying to see my present circumstances as an opportunity and not a hardship. That the desert is a blessing and not a cursing. Remembering God has an eternal perspective and that His ways are beyond my ways.
Reminding myself, no matter what His way is better.
Again remember that, no matter what His way is better.
I can’t tell you what the future holds here for me. I can tell you I will probably be blogging less. Maybe for only a season, maybe not.
It’s His story. And I want to let Him write it.
Before I go I want to ask you, how is your New Year’s resolution going? Did you get a little off track like me? Or are you still going strong? It’s not too late to get back on track.
Blessings to you. Till next time. xx
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